You say that you love me more than you ever thought possible. You say that you can’t imagine a life without me in it. You say all of these things that make me fall more in love with you every day. But, if you knew everything, would you stay?
If every one of my demons came out to play; if you opened my closet to find it full of skeletons from my past. If you heard the stories about me; every rumor someone has made up to hurt me. If you saw every mistake I’ve made; met every person that I’ve let down in my life.
Do you love me enough to love me through that?
I’ve been to hell and back. I’ve hit rock bottom before. I’ve made a few deals with the devil for things and people that I shouldn't have. I’ve broken promises that I should've gone above and beyond to keep. Made way more mistakes than I care to count. I’ve disappointed people that have meant the most to me.
I know I've done my fair share of stupid things. There's no arguing that.
But would any of that change your mind about me? Would it make you look at me any different? Make you love me any less? Would you think it was a hopeless cause and give up on us? Have you thinking you should take back all of those sweet things you've said to me?
Would you wish that we'd never made it this far? Make you regret the time we've had together? Would you decide that I'm more of a burden than you need in your life?
I want to trust you with everything. I want to believe that I can let you see everything and that you’ll still want me in your life. I want that more than anything.
But my past is stopping me.
You’re not the first person I’ve wanted to let in. You’re not the first person I wanted to trust completely. If you let it affect us.. you won’t be the first one to do that either.
The difference with you is that I want you to be the last.
I want you the be the last person I have to open up to. The last person I have to trust with my stained past. I want you to be the last person I love. I want you to be my last everything.
So, will you love me anyway? Will you put my fears to rest and not care a bit about my past? Will you stay with me?
Do you love me enough to accept the demons I'll bring with me?
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